December 1st is once again looming before me. December 1st will mark 11 years since T.J. left this earth. My heart is heavy. I feel the tears building up in the back of my throat just waiting to spill out at any moment. All around the holiday season is in full swing. It happens every year, but still I am never prepared. I want to be the person who brings peace and joy to others. I don’t want to be the person who feels that taking a step forward is just too much, but every yea